Saturday, March 28, 2009

Belated Donner Lake pics




A view from the cabin; Roger having to cut my food because Paul "just couldn't handle it anymore" watching me struggle one-handed; a snowy hike in Vans tennis shoes and hanging onto Roger with Carol, April & Fermin; and my signature look for the weekend - dirty hair, a splint and a sling...


The Little Things

I can type like a normal person again! And make a fist (it hurts though)! And this morning I got dressed entirely by myself, including putting on my skinny jeans and even doing the button! Hooray for getting some of my functionality back!

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

The Big Reveal

Per the Dr's orders, Mom and I slowly unwrapped my right wrist and removed the splint this evening. What I expected to find was a neat bandage totally covering the incision from my surgery. What I found instead was gauze completely soaked with dried blood and only clear surgical tape covering the incision. Needless to say I panicked a little. I'll try to star using the wrist tomorrow, but for now I'm wrapped back up and ready only for baby steps toward recovery...

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Frankensarah: The Whole Story


Okay, since I can only type with one hand I figure it's a good idea to get the whole story of how I broke my wrists down in one place so I don't have to keep writing it in emails and facebook updates. So here's what happened:

I went to my personal training appt on 3/12 like usual. We were concentrating on legs and my trainer had me jumping up on a box about 18" high - an exercise we've done many times before. I was getting tired because we were about 45 minutes into the hour session. I jumped up, lost my balance, fell backwards and the reflexes kicked in. This would probably be a good place to mention for those of you who haven't noticed that I have twiggy, ridiculously weak wrists that aren't meant to hold up anything. I struggle with push ups and yoga poses because they depend too much on my spindly little wrists. So when I tried to brace my fall, I ended up instead curled up on the floor with both wrists in extraordinary pain.

At first I thought only the right wrist was injured and even that one only sprained. I hadn't heard a pop or snap, I could still move my fingers... and I was supposed to be on my way to the airport less than 2 hours later. I called my doctor but he couldn't get me in until 3:30 which seemed like an eternity. Trainer did everything he could to make me feel comfortable, helped me call the doctor and my mom, and apologized about a hundred times even though the whole thing was a legitimate accident and totally not his fault.

My mom got me home around 2:30 and I was still planning to leave for my flight to Reno. But we couldn't get me dressed because it hurt so badly to just get my arms through my shirt, so I finally gave in and agreed to see a doctor. By the time we got to the office my left wrist had started to swell pretty badly as well, so I asked the doctor to order x-rays for both. It wasn't until the radiologist called around 6 that I found out that BOTH wrists were fractured. You've. Got. To. Be. Kidding.

Did I cry when I fell? No. I whined and whimpered, but did not cry. Did I cry when my mom started me thinking about not being able to put my own hair in a ponytail, or drive, or button my pants, or put on my own makeup, or write a to do list or grade papers myself? Yes. Seriously. Dependence makes me cry.

The good news: The splint I got at my first doctor will hold me over the weekend. I can get a splint for my left wrist at CVS. I can see the orthopedic Dr on Monday.

So Monday I get back from the lake excited to get casted at my ortho appointment. Only instead the doctor looks at the x-rays, points out the regular fracture in my left wrist and then the severely worse fracture, impaction, and general crushing of the little bones in my right hand and announces (with absolutely no nuance or sense of how devastating this is) that I'll just have to have surgery on my right wrist. And soon. Like this same week. Which means more time off work. And I'm a sub so I don't exactly have sick days. And I need at least 5 days recovery. And that's when I really started to cry and made the doctor go out to the waiting room to get my mom. Honestly.

Surgery scheduled for early Friday morning. Some procedure I didn't ask questions about because I was so overwhelmed. Back to work Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday. Can't unlock my own classroom door, write on the board, pass out papers, open a three-ring binder or put a paperclip on anything. Thank God high schoolers are moderately self-sufficient. Things are challenging but I can function.

Friday morning = surgery at 7 am. Apparently instead of a hard cast I get a metal plate attached to the big bone and 10 metal screws into the smaller wrist bone and 7 of the 10 little hand bones. Not nervous about surgery - just want to be on the other side of this whole thing and on the mend.

9:10 am wake up from surgery in the recovery room. PAINPAINPAINPAINPAIN!!!!! Holy hell! This is what they are talking about when they ask you to rate your pain from 1 to 10. This is 10. I could curse. 10! 10!!

Recovery update: Vicodin is a beautiful thing. So is sleep. And Mom (who goes above and beyond to not only take care of the things I need help with but tries to do it the way I would do it for myself). So is the Twilight DVD release coming at exactly the right time. So recovery is coming along. I should be back to work Wednesday. That same day I'm also supposed to be able to unwrap my right wrist and start working on mobility and rotation again. Within 2 weeks I'm supposed to be able to make a fist! At least 3 more weeks in a splint for my left wrist, probably 6 for my right. I'm on my way!

Monday, March 16, 2009

Highs and Lows

It's been an eventful few days. On Thursday's training I lost my balance, tried to catch myself and ended up fracturing not one but both of my wrists. I wasn't willing to let that slight set back mean I missed my weekend in the mountains with my global village teammates, though. So, highs: had a great weekend with my friends, I don't have to get hard casts on either wrist. Lows: I need surgery on my right wrist and will have to miss work for it, I can't wash my own hair, button my pants, or do any number of normal tasks because I only have limited use of one set of fingers, I can't exercise and I'm going to need a lot of help doing my job. I'm about 30% overwhelmed, 10% negative, 10% shocked, and pushing for 50% still upbeat. It could be so much worse. Pictures to come.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Back to Work

I've known since October that I would be doing a second long-term sub position this year at the same school as fall. This is absolutely ideal for a substitute. I get to fake some sense of a normal school year because 6 out of the 9 months I'm in one place, working with one department, with one set of admin and one bell schedule. It's almost like having a real job just without the real salary or real benefits.

So, knowing that her due date was coming up in a couple weeks, the teacher I'm covering and I started talking about stuff in a general way around Tuesday. We planned to meet for the first time on Friday. But babies have a funny way of not caring about your plans at all. Wednesday night I got a panicked phone call. From the hospital. Her water broke. She was having her baby. 3 weeks early. And I had to start immediately.

Okay. Sure. I can totally do this.

I left on Thursday with some bare bones lesson plans for the next two days and butterflies in my stomach like the first day of school. The thing is, I'm not a student teacher anymore. I'm a classroom teacher because it's who I am as a person. So I got there and realized "What the crazy was I worried about? This is natural! This is what I'm meant to be doing!" And it's true.

So far things are going well. I love - LOVELOVELOVE - my kids. 10 honors and 11 college prep English. It's like teaching on a different planet from the 9th graders I had in fall. I'm in heaven. Or really, just exactly where I'm supposed to be. Instead of having to adjust from the 3 months I've basically had to sleep in and do whatever I wanted all day, I just feel like that's been a weird waiting period so I could get back to my regular life. Teaching is my real life.

The lack of prep time means at least this first few weeks I'll be playing catch up and may never get more than a day or two ahead of the kids in the books, buy hey, that's how I spent most of last year too. It's not like I can't figure it out. And I'm just so flipping EXCITED!